Don’t Know

I’m feeling so frustrated.

I think my mobile is also acting up because of me.

My energy is disturbed.

I think I should go back to my room and let’s see

I’m not hungry and my appetite is gone.

What should I do

I don’t know

My brain is not working

Bored Life

I’m getting bored now a days. I feel like there is no purpose if life. Right now, I’m preparing for an exam. I hope, it goes well. I’m trying to find a job. I don’t know what is in store for me in the future but I’m hoping it’s good.

I burned my diary today. I felt like I don’t want to burn my memories. I’ll keep them with me.

Goodbye my friend.

WHY

Why is this so tough to live the way people want to

Why is this so tough to love someone

Why are there sad endings in life

Why can’t people live their loved ones

Why is this world based on sadness and despair

Manipulation in Cycle

Stupid asses… Ufffff I’m so angry. They just collectively abuse you.. f**k off you abusers… Oppressors… I hate you all.. I forgot why I was trying to cut them from my life.. now I realized it again.. fate is like take it or cut it.. and it happens again and again in a cycle . End this cycle you witch… End it

A Child’s Dream

Chapter 2

Emma was scared because of her cousin’s behaviour but she kept quiet. She was from a small village and there was taught no education about sexual relationships and it was considered a taboo to even speak about it.Her cousin Shaid kept on doing this whenever he was at home with her alone.Until she was at the age when menstraution started.When her father suggested that Emma should sleep with her cousin Shaid, she refused to sleep and she said that she wanted sleep with her mom and she trembled the whole night in fear if he might come and do it again.After this incident, Shaid got into a fight in drunken state and he fired a gun at his friend and he ran away from police and didn’t came home for much longer time.Emma was relieved that Shaid will not come back for sometime and she started focusing on her studies and topped every exam.Her parents wanted her to be a doctor and she didn’t have any wish or say in this matter as her family was adamant about it.She prepared for this and got sick before her exams.She was coughing very hard and couldn’t breathe.Doctor gave her medicine.She still gave exams and then congratulatot card came when she heard she got admission in the all female medical institute as her family was very religious and strict about male female interactions.She did shopping for clothes,bags and other necessities.She was relieved that her sister Sidna was already in 4th yr of MBBS and they both can take care of each other.With the hope of becoming a doctor, she went to the bigger city.

A Child’s Dream

Chapter 1

Emma is born into a a family having 5sisters and 4 brothers. When she was almost 5, she went to a school in the neighborhood village. She was a very obedient child and used to study on her own without anyone’s help. She didn’t have a dream of her own future. Her parents wanted her to be a doctor as she was very intelligent and passed the exam with very good grades.
When she was in class 6 , her 25yr old cousin came her house to live there for 2days.
He asked her to sing a song for him and teach him how to sing as Emma’s voice was so good.
He asked her to sit on his lap and she obeyed without thinking too much. These incidents repeated and she got comfortable with that cousin named Shaid.
One day, Emma 14 yr old was sleeping in her bed and Shaid came into her room and laid down with her.
He confirmed that Emma was sleeping and uncovered her chest and started touching her breasts and between legs. Upon this, Emma woke up and she felt very uncomfortable but she didn’t know what was happening to her and why Shaid was touching her. She didn’t speak and pretended to be sleeping. This happened for a while until Shaid grope Emma’s left and and put it on his penis and was trying to get pleasure. Emma was stunned and scared but still pretended to sleep. After sometime, Shaid got up and went to washroom. Emma got up and ran to the kitchen so that she can be around people and was scared.

Void

I know they are looking at me because I’m sad and they know that…

I know they want to love me but I know I cannot fill that void..

Our society is structured this way and I cannot cure my heart..

I’ll live in freedom and I’ll find that freedom one day…

Keep dreaming…

I’m feeling so bad right now

I feel like if we have financial independence, then we can be free otherwise I feel like we have burdens I’m like wtf

Mistreatment by parents … Just because we don’t have a job..

I can see clearly these people mistreating me

My friend was right

Right now, I have to be patient and just pretend to be alright…and get out at the right moment..

Why am I feeling so worthless right now?

It took me 7years to build myself and they took only one moment to shatter my dreams and my self esteem..I am thinking I hate myself for not standing up to myself… Now when my friend said that she is ashamed of herself… Now I understand her words..

TRANS and Non-Binary RIGHTS

In our country, trans and non-binary people are treated very badly at their homes, schools, colleges, universities and work places.

These people are discriminated just because they don’t fit into your kind of binary gender or sexuality and you people start abusing these innocent people.

Such people are killed or forced to adopt binary gendered system or heterosexuality.

Just because some people are trying to live their lives and want to live freely on their own choices, you people don’t have the authority to abuse them.

A family who should protect their loved ones is the place where these people get tortured the most.

Their parents and siblings torture them and hide them from their relatives and the society.T

Family makes their child exposure almost to zero.

WHY???

You don’t acknowledge their different gender and different sexuality then why are you hiding them from the world?

Because you know from the inside that they are not you and cannot be you and you don’t want to feel ashamed in front of the society and you want to feel appreciated.

SHAME ON YOU PEOPLE WHO ARE TORTURING INNOCENT PEOPLE.

Shame on you mother

Shame on you father

Shame on you sister

Shame on you brother

Shame on all the people who make trans and non binary people’s lives hell outside of their homes.

SHAME ON YOU ABUSERS!!!!!!

I HOPE YOU ALL PEOPLE WILL GO THROUGH A BAD KARMA!!!!!