I don’t know why but

I know what I want…

I know what I want

This is the biggest blessing that happened to me….

I’m so happy that I have grown up

I know how to cut myself from toxic people…

People are so jealous of other people they can ruin other people’s lives..

My father is blocking my road to success.

He wants to control my life and my life decisions

I learned something today

1. You can always change your plans

2. Trust your loved ones

3. Believe in yourself

I have learned

Suppose if your family is controlling you, they cannot control you for your whole life… There will come a time when they can’t…..

Wait for your opportunity!!!!

REINCARNATION

Long long time ago there was a girl living as a slave in a palace.

A prince fell in love with that slave..

It was love for that slave but I guess lust for that prince..

Prince reassured slave girl for his love and used to get sexual favours from her..

That slave girl was very very very very beautiful….

Everyone used to love her so much but she didn’t fall for anyone but that player prince..

Prince promised to marry her and run away from that palace..

But

That prince married a princess and let that slave girl fall apart..

Prince’s wife gave poison to that slave girl and she drank it in hurt and pain given by the prince..

She promised to never love or trust anyone again..

She died with tears in her eyes…

Now she is born again…

What will be her destiny..

As she has fallen in love again with that prince..

That prince has married that woman again..

Will that slave girl who is not slave in today’s world be able to find her own path???

She is single and in no need for love

She is the most beautiful woman in this world..

She doesn’t care for anyone in this world except for her friends..

She has lost hope, trust, belief in love..

What is her destiny…

Let’s find out in this lifetime…

Bheega bheega sa yeh December hai

Bheegi bheegi si tanhai hai

Competing For Attention

I’m feeling loneliness now a days.
I think I’m being an adult right now
Living in a joint family system isn’t that easy when your own family is so big…kind of having own benefits and harms..
These people don’t need any individuality, competing for attention from parents.
I can now clearly see why these people hate each other, trying to be good to each other for the sake of love.

I think these people are being nice to each other because they want to show their parents that we are good people.

Being the smallest child in my family, now my parents forget me that I exist in that large family.

I think that’s why I went through abandonment issues in my teenage life and made mistakes.

I wanted to perform well because then my parents noticed me and praised me and I was able to get their attention,affection and love as I thought being able to receive love, you should give something in return in that give and take I lived my years..

I rebelled against my parents because I wanted my parents attention because I wasn’t doing well in my studies..

Now when I’m silent, I think now after today’s incident when I noticed my elder brother competing with me for attention, I felt his loneliness and emptiness.

My mother forgot today that I existed..

Now I think I don’t want to fight, compete for my parents attention or love.

And I think there is no need in love to give or take

It doesn’t matter

Clinging onto someone who doesn’t want you in their life, let those people go..

If someone loves you, they love you.

Even if you remain silent, they will never forget you..

Let those people go away who are not there for you in the time of need…

LET THEM GO…